7/21/02

The first thing I have to do is try and contact anyone from Hayward. I feel terrible but I can't make it. It's just that life sucks and I can't control anything. As many know I've been rebuilding the bathroom in my house for six months now. This is why updates have been sparse. But luckily I own a duplex and can use the upstairs apartment to crap. That is, of course, until I came home this weekend to find water coming into my downstairs from the upstairs bathroom. It caused the wall and ceiling in my dining room to fall down (see picture) so now another room in my house is fucked besides of the two bathrooms NONE OF THEM WORK!

I sat up last night thinking about how much life sucks. I think a lot of skaters have lives that just aren't like most peoples. People my age have families and 401K's and shit and I'm to fucking immature to wash my dishes or feed myself. My girl just left me and my house is falling apart. It's actually pretty funny. I'd love to be up in Hayward right now rather than sitting here waiting to work on the goddamn hole in my house but I can't. So the point of this rant is to say I'm sorry to everyone in Hayward and to calm myself down so I don't light myself on fire. Avoid the real world and skate until your legs don't work no more.

BRIAN PERRY